newlydead r3 - day 3 - corrin

[jinglebros]

[ Aoi is guiding Corrin into his dressing room, arms around him. It's pretty hard to walk when he's insisting on embracing him while they walk but he's not going to do it any other way. When they get inside he kicks the door closed. ]

Okay, we're alone now. You can let everything out.

[ He wants to let everything out too but he's stuffing it down and burying it. He's going to take care of Corrin. That comes first before anything else. ]

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[chosemyfate]

[ A shudder and a hitched breath as he grips onto Aoi. But his grip is only tight. Even thuogh his next words will be his voice of reason, but his wants... say otherwise. ]

I probably shouldn't be doing this with you... Not after what you dealt with... I'm sorry.

[jinglebros]

[ Shrugs a bit and tightens his hold on Corrin. ]

If it helps, after you cry, then I can cry too. We'll take turns, okay?

[ Presses a kiss to Corrin's forehead. ]

I really don't care what I'm dealing with right now. I care about you. I couldn't forgive myself if I could comfort you but didn't do anything about it...

[chosemyfate]

[Please let him, Aoi. Corrin wouldn't forgive himself if he didn't help you at all...

He just nods to that suggestion as he lets his face hide into Aoi's shoulder. You will hear a muffled sob as his shoulders shake.]

[jinglebros]

[ Holds him tight and close, rubbing his back with a hand. He presses another kiss to the top of Corrin's head. ]

I love you and I'm here. Let out everything you need to. Scream, cry, whatever... Nobody can hear it but me.

[chosemyfate]

[And scream he does as he clings, even if it's a bit muffled from fabric. Screams as tears come flowing down his cheeks and probably soak the fabric of Aoi's shirt. It sound so strangled, like it was hard to make a noise through his tight-feeling throat. Pained like someone had just stabbed him. He didn't get hurt, he sure feels like it. Mixed with sobs that it sounded so broken.

You could hear frantic muffled words, due to burying his face into Aoi, of 'My baby.'. 'Why her?'. 'Not her. It shouldn't have been her.' 'I'd switch places if I could.' 'I want their heads on the end of a sword for this.']

[jinglebros]

[ He doesn't say it's going to be okay, because he doesn't know it's going to be. He doesn't know if it'll ever feel okay. He doesn't make shushing noises either, because he wants Corrin to let it out, he wants him to be as loud as he needs to. What he does do is cling back to him and keep rubbing his back, resting his chin on top of Corrin's head. Occasionally he tilts his head so he can press a kiss to Corrin's hair. With how wounded the dragon sounds, Aoi is crying too, but he makes damn sure to keep it soundless and sobless because he doesn't want to tip the other man off to it. He's crying for him but not crying to stop him. ]

[chosemyfate]

[ Another moment passes of this. The pained and strangled scream eventually digress to choked sobs. The kiss to his head and the soothing feeling of a hand rubbing his back helped to calm him.

More moments pass and he's eventually just an exhausted husk of a sad parent as he kept slumped against Aoi, his body shaking with quiet hiccups every now and then. Despite being fatigued, his arms still felt tight around Aoi and shook a bit. His voice sounds raw and almost like his voice could be gone soon after this from all the screaming. ]

I failed Niles for not keeping a close enough eye on our child. But I also failed to see if your sister needed help. ...I'm sorry.

[jinglebros]

No. The only one that failed Akane was me.

And Nina was an adult. You can only keep so much of an eye on an adult, you know? They tend to do their own thing.

[chosemyfate]

... [He'll wipe at his own eyes as he pulled back just a bit. ]

You say this like you have a experience. [ Corrin did kind of forget Aoi pretty much raised his sister, sorry.... ]

[jinglebros]

...yes? I raised Akane since she was five, she was mine.

[ He's a little more upset now, feeling invalidated and stiffened up. ]

[chosemyfate]

[The only reason he moves in again is to gently move his arms around Aoi to guide Aoi into the exact position Corrin was in earlier. He offered to switch positions, but his arms were loose enough to pull away. A gesture of his attempt to comfort, but also as an apology. ]

...I'm sorry, Aoi. I got defensive when you were only telling me why it couldn't have been my fault. You were only helping.

This is also why I felt awful to ask of this from you. You're in just as much of not more pain than us. It didn't have to be this way for Nina... but it also didn't have to be this way for Akane. Please know you didn't send her to her death. I will only ask that of you.

[jinglebros]

[ He unstiffens again and rests his head against Corrin. He's quiet for a long moment and when he speaks his voice is quiet and a little choked. He's trying not to sob, now. ]

No, it's my fault. I didn't vote for her. I thought she could take care of herself, and I was angry, so I took care of other people. If I'd only voted for her... she'd have lived.

[ He sounds so angry and upset at himself. ]